this is a lot more successful than you give yourself credit for, ambitious yes, it's wonderfully composed, rich in tone and movement and is interesting, so it ticks all the boxes. There is no such thing as a perfect painting, and it's good to push yourself, and tell yourself you can do better, because you can, but the fact that you can do better doesn't mean that this is no good, it's a wonderful picture, and the only way is up. Just imagine the great things you'll be pushing out soon.
(Pride and Prejudice 95 is my favourite, though the 2005 one is great, you can't beat Colin Firth as Darcy, and Mrs Bennett is sublime in it)